自傷無色

自傷無色 (Jishou Mushoku) by nekobolo feat. Miku Hatsune

Original:  http://www.nicovideo.jp/watch/sm19870840
off vocal: http://piapro.jp/t/sdnT

(with english subs there is no other video I guess?)

Utattemita → http://www.nicovideo.jp/watch/sm19932642

Kimi no you na hito ni naritai na
“Boku rashii hito” ni naritai na
Nozomu nara sou suri ya ii kedo sa
Demo sorette honto ni boku na no kai

Kodomodamashi na yume hitotsu
Konna boku nara shineba ii no ni
Konna boku ga ikiteru dakede
Nanmannin no hito ga kanashinde
Dare mo boku wo nozomanai
Sonna sekai dattara ii no ni na

Konna boku ga kiechau dakede
Nan'okunin no hito ga yorokonde
Dare mo nani mo nikumanai nara
Sonna ureshii koto wa nai na

Ashita mo boku wa yume utsutsu
Kono mama boku wa kiete ii no ni
Konna boku ga ikita tokoro de
Nan'okunin no hito wa shiranaishi
Dare mo boku wo nozomanai
Sonna sekai dattara ii no kana

Konna boku ga kieta tokoro de
Nan'okunin no hito wa kawaranai
Dare mo boku wo nikumanai nara
Sonshita koto ni kawarinai na

Saigo nanka minna onaji you ni taorete yukimasu
Made in (meido in) tanin no “Jibun jishin” kuzurete yukimasu
Saigo nanka minna onaji you ni hanareteku no ni

Konna boku ga ikiteru dakede
Nande kimi wa sonna ni warau no

Kimi ga sonna egao ja
Kanashikute kietakute mo
Sayonara suru riyuu nante mou
Nakereba ii no ni

Konna boku ga kieta tokoro de
Nan'okunin no hito wa kawaranai
Dakedo boku wo tomeru nani ka ga
Sonna kaoshicha waraenai ya
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Another song of nekobolo (*´◒`*)
I cried because of the lyrics LOL I really love them, in all of nekobolo's songs

I put those ' in some of the words because of pronounciation, so you don't say na-no-ku-nin but nan-o-ku-nin.

Note: I just read that some people intepret that it's a song about suicide or a song in which a person (you know?) wants to die. IT IS NOT.
It is a sad, heart-breaking song, even I cried but in the end it is a song. 
I think it's more about a young person who feels insecure and kinda unloved, therefore feeling useless and unneeded, being in depression, and so, those thoughts shown in the song come up. Thank you.